I'm Trying to be Nice......

My boyfriend has this saying that he always says to me when I'm ready to do or say something really foul. "Be Nice" is what he tells me and sometimes I change my attitude but other times I say, "I don't want to be nice." Well...today is one of those days...ignorant people have caused me to want to say nasty things, be nasty, basically, I want to slap someone. I sometimes wonder why the devil is so busy, especially a day like today(I don't do Mondays). I wonder why people do some of the things that they do....like intentionally hurt someone's feelings.

This morning I was faced with a dilemma. A person who I love dearly has been going through some turmoil with people whom she thought loved & cared about her but she recently found out that they're assasinating her daily. I'm a person who loves & loves hard. When someone close to me is hurting, I hurt. Today she's discoverd that someone very close to her is trying to break her down and along with that person, others have joined in to help. I know that all of those people are miserable(only miserable people set out to intentionally hurt someone) so I try to keep that in my brain but when I see her hurting the way she is, it makes me want react.

Now, if I react, I will have to suffer some extreme consequences and I'm not sure if these people are worth it. Now, the person that I love & her well-being is worth it, but these animals who are trying to destroy aren't. I don't want to give them the glory of knowing that they have won.

Why do ignorant people feel that they've gained the victory when they hurt people? Why don't they feel bad for the choices they've made? Why don't they feel remorse when they see the hurt in the person's eyes that they've attacked? Why don't they reverse the situation and think about how they would feel if someone were to do the same thing to them? Why can't they just be nice?

I've been in prayer all morning. I tossed & turned all night long. I woke up around 2:30am and couldn't get back to sleep. Was this God's way of preparing me for what was to come this morning? I couldn't even sleep this morning on my commute to work because I was struggling with an angel on my right shoulder & the devil on my left. The devil was telling me to start making some phone calls to curse some folks out, do some visiting to smack some folk and think of some ways to hurt these people. On the other hand, the angel was telling me to continue doing what I was doing, praying, being there for that person who's hurting & remain silent. I don't want the devil to win, I never want him to get his way so.....I guess I have no choice but to BE NICE!!!!