Friday, February 09, 2007

"Taking One Day At a Time"

Oh my goodness, where has the time gone. It just seems like yesterday when I brought in the year 2007 and we're already into February(shortest month of the year). I'm dealing with the question, "What do I do next?" Lately I've been consumed in my thoughts as it pertains to my life. I have so many things that I want to do but I don't know where to start. I constantly question myself as to what's most important but I can't seem to figure it out. I would like to go back to school but, do I really need too is the question? I would like to buy a new house but, is that really necessary at this time? I would like to start a family but, is this the right time? I want a new job but, should I stay put until I figure out what I really want to do? I want to start my own business but, which business do I chose to invest my time? I want to write a book but, which subject matter should I start with? I want to move out of the state but, is this something I will regret later? So many "what if's" and as the days pass, it seems like I'm running out of time. I've been so worn down the past few weeks and I keep asking myself am I stressed, overwhelmed, or am I just too deep in my thoughts(like I always am)? So today I've decided to just write everything down and sort out which direction I plan to take. It always seems like time is getting away from me, so as soon as I learn to take one day at a time and deal with each issue at one time, I think I'll be able to figure out what I want to do. Being the over-achiever that I am, I wear my own self out at times. This is one of those times where I'm sick of myself(lol). I see other people just coasting through life and they seem to be content with their life and I wonder, why am I never satisfied? My mom told me as a child I would always run and I stayed busy. My friends today tell me that I'm a busy-body so I guess that will never change. A good friend of mine told me not to look at my situation in a negative way but look at it as a positive thing. My indecisiveness over the years has allowed me to make very good decisions with my life. I think that most of my goals I've set for myself, I've already accomplished those so now its time to keep moving. So, all of those things that I question, I know I'm going to accomplish them all but my plan is to take take one day at a time...yep, that's what I'll do.