The Perfect Weekend
This weekend was perfect. I made a promise to myself that I was going to get some thigns done around the house, and I did. I didn't get a chance to complete everything, but I did get rid of a lot of clutter. I had planned to start Friday night, but as soon as I laid down with baby girl to put her to sleep, I was right along with her. When I woke up, it was 12:30am. I guess my body was telling me that it needed rest.
Woke up Saturday morning and ran a few errands when I realized that the pollen was too much for Nina. Her eyes were puffy, she kept sneezing and her cheeks started turning red. I quickly went back to the house and that's where we stayed for the rest of the weekend-we even missed church. I began washing clothes, cleaning out her closet getting rid of winter and too small clothes, and getting the house prepared for the paint & carpet job this week coming. On Sunday, I slept in and as much as I wanted to go to church, I decided to stay home and chill. I organized my cds(I didn't realize I had so many) and again, continuing to get the house prepared for it to be painted and carpeted.
I'm looking forward to some of the home improvement changes I have planned. I haven't been able to do anything in the house for a minute, so I'm looking forward to my mini-project.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Rambling....That's What I Do
Today I'm feeling GREAT!! Actually, I've been feeling this way for quite some time-thank God. I've put a lot of things in perspective and realized that each day that I live, is going to be a good day. Bad things may occur throughout my day but I won't allow anything to consume me. With that said, life is good and I'm walking around feeling real light. My burdens have been lifted, my head is semi-clear and my heart is no longer heavy. I prayed about it, God answered and now I'm good.
Last weekend was my girl Ria & Byrons wedding...it was beautiful. The both of them looked so happy and it showed through the smiles on their faces. I've been rolling with these 2 since the day they met...been routing for them and I'm finally at ease just knowing that they're husband & wife. I'm watching them...keeping my eye on them to set the example for us young folks who may have put love on hold for a minute. I now feel like everyone is looking at me sideways like I need to be the next one to get married. I've never been a follower...so I'm in no hurry to get married because most of my girlz have jumped the broom. I can wait for a ring, I want my love life to be right. I guess that comes with me being such a planner and/or always wanting things to be done right. I can wait for that type of commitment, especially if it means that its going to be with the person who God has for me.
I'm starting to feel myself again. I've always been in love with myself(some say too much) but I can say that I haven't felt that feeling that I've always felt about myself. Like that 'poppin my collar' type of feeling(lol). The last couple of months I've been staring at myself more, feeling my swag(haha)and just getting that strut(that's what Will calls it) back. Ive purchased a few pair of F'em girl shoes...4-inch platforms and they are so hot. I feel so extra sexy in them and I love the way my legs look when I have them on. Get em' girl(lol).
He's been extra expressive lately. Why does this happen...as soon as I think I got it all figured out, here he comes...why? I know he loves me but why wait until I'm at ease to now want to talk, express and all that break up to make up stuff. I understand that you love us and you want your family...got that...I also realize that you know that once I leave that you are going to be left to really think about all that has transpired in the last 4 years all by yourself. I never intended for him to be alone...I still don't, but right now, its not about him at all...its about me and baby girl and our happiness and well being. I'm not working anymore but I will meet him part of the way if I believe he's ready to fight, other than that...business as usual.
I realized that I don't have alot of time to myself anymore. Baby girl takes up all my extra time. I'm not complaining but its a task just to get a pedicure now adays. I hate leaving her...I feel like she's being cheated already during the week when I only have about 3 hours to spend with her before I put her to bed. All my time is devoted to her and Im ok with it. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 years. Its a good thing that I eat healthy and I already have a nice shape cause I would be mad. I'm incorporating some extra walking in my daily routine because its about to get hot and I need to get back in my 2 piece.
Ok...enough rambling...life is good and I can't wait to get off to get home to baby girl. That's the highlight of my life!
Today I'm feeling GREAT!! Actually, I've been feeling this way for quite some time-thank God. I've put a lot of things in perspective and realized that each day that I live, is going to be a good day. Bad things may occur throughout my day but I won't allow anything to consume me. With that said, life is good and I'm walking around feeling real light. My burdens have been lifted, my head is semi-clear and my heart is no longer heavy. I prayed about it, God answered and now I'm good.
Last weekend was my girl Ria & Byrons wedding...it was beautiful. The both of them looked so happy and it showed through the smiles on their faces. I've been rolling with these 2 since the day they met...been routing for them and I'm finally at ease just knowing that they're husband & wife. I'm watching them...keeping my eye on them to set the example for us young folks who may have put love on hold for a minute. I now feel like everyone is looking at me sideways like I need to be the next one to get married. I've never been a follower...so I'm in no hurry to get married because most of my girlz have jumped the broom. I can wait for a ring, I want my love life to be right. I guess that comes with me being such a planner and/or always wanting things to be done right. I can wait for that type of commitment, especially if it means that its going to be with the person who God has for me.
I'm starting to feel myself again. I've always been in love with myself(some say too much) but I can say that I haven't felt that feeling that I've always felt about myself. Like that 'poppin my collar' type of feeling(lol). The last couple of months I've been staring at myself more, feeling my swag(haha)and just getting that strut(that's what Will calls it) back. Ive purchased a few pair of F'em girl shoes...4-inch platforms and they are so hot. I feel so extra sexy in them and I love the way my legs look when I have them on. Get em' girl(lol).
He's been extra expressive lately. Why does this happen...as soon as I think I got it all figured out, here he comes...why? I know he loves me but why wait until I'm at ease to now want to talk, express and all that break up to make up stuff. I understand that you love us and you want your family...got that...I also realize that you know that once I leave that you are going to be left to really think about all that has transpired in the last 4 years all by yourself. I never intended for him to be alone...I still don't, but right now, its not about him at all...its about me and baby girl and our happiness and well being. I'm not working anymore but I will meet him part of the way if I believe he's ready to fight, other than that...business as usual.
I realized that I don't have alot of time to myself anymore. Baby girl takes up all my extra time. I'm not complaining but its a task just to get a pedicure now adays. I hate leaving her...I feel like she's being cheated already during the week when I only have about 3 hours to spend with her before I put her to bed. All my time is devoted to her and Im ok with it. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 years. Its a good thing that I eat healthy and I already have a nice shape cause I would be mad. I'm incorporating some extra walking in my daily routine because its about to get hot and I need to get back in my 2 piece.
Ok...enough rambling...life is good and I can't wait to get off to get home to baby girl. That's the highlight of my life!
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Life Is Good
I'm feeling great..I mean really, feeling refreshed. For the last few weeks, I've been able to get rid of some of the negative things that were holding me up and taking up way too much of my mind space. I've been talking to God alot and I asked for this peace & tranquility and like always, he came through. I'm not saying that things don't still get under my skin or every now and then I don't want to shake the mess out of someone but I can truly say that I feel great.
So many wonderful things are taking place. This Friday, one of my girlz is getting married. Maria & Byron are tying the knot and I'm so excited. I'm looking forward to experiencing them exchange their vows and promise everlasting love to one another. I feel really good about the 2 of them. Alot of times, I attend weddings and I get this strange feeling like...I'm not sure if they should be doing this but, I know that Ria & Byron are ready. The both of them have gone through so much but they both want & live for the same things and I know that they're going to be the example for black love.
My baby girl is doing great. Every day she impresses me and wears me out at the same time. She's walking and into everything. I sometimes look at her and just can't believe that she is mine. I stare at her eyes and I feel her hair and I'm just in awe. I know she realizes how much I love her and she will never have to question whether her mommy has her back, because I will/do.
Her Dad & I are doing ok. I think he recognizes that things have changed. I'm not sure if he's comfortable with it but I think he's happy to know that all the fighting & bickering is behind us(I think). He knows that I love him very much and I want the best for him and whatever makes him happy, I want him to go for it. What I don't want is to feel like I'm not appreciated. My life has changed drastically once Nina came and he needs to realize that I've given up so much to be the best mommy I can for her and he needs to do the same to be the best Daddy. Nothing in this world should be more important than Nina(and me foreal-lol). So, some days are very good and others are just OK, but I made a vow to never have another horrible day with him. Its not worth it. I refuse to argue about a situation that doesn't have a positive solution. Going around in circles about issues that aren't going to change or people/things that he allows to hold us up...not happening no more. Again, I think he recognizes the change.
Overall, life is good. My relationship with God is growing stronger daily. I love the calm that has come into my life. I'm happy with my semi-boring life now. Work, Nina, sleep and extra curricular activities when I can fit them in. My sistahgirlz always have my back and always available when its time to have girl time. I don't know where I would be without all of them. They are the greatest aunts...Nina is so blessed and so am I. No complaints here, just a lot of smiling(:
I'm feeling great..I mean really, feeling refreshed. For the last few weeks, I've been able to get rid of some of the negative things that were holding me up and taking up way too much of my mind space. I've been talking to God alot and I asked for this peace & tranquility and like always, he came through. I'm not saying that things don't still get under my skin or every now and then I don't want to shake the mess out of someone but I can truly say that I feel great.
So many wonderful things are taking place. This Friday, one of my girlz is getting married. Maria & Byron are tying the knot and I'm so excited. I'm looking forward to experiencing them exchange their vows and promise everlasting love to one another. I feel really good about the 2 of them. Alot of times, I attend weddings and I get this strange feeling like...I'm not sure if they should be doing this but, I know that Ria & Byron are ready. The both of them have gone through so much but they both want & live for the same things and I know that they're going to be the example for black love.
My baby girl is doing great. Every day she impresses me and wears me out at the same time. She's walking and into everything. I sometimes look at her and just can't believe that she is mine. I stare at her eyes and I feel her hair and I'm just in awe. I know she realizes how much I love her and she will never have to question whether her mommy has her back, because I will/do.
Her Dad & I are doing ok. I think he recognizes that things have changed. I'm not sure if he's comfortable with it but I think he's happy to know that all the fighting & bickering is behind us(I think). He knows that I love him very much and I want the best for him and whatever makes him happy, I want him to go for it. What I don't want is to feel like I'm not appreciated. My life has changed drastically once Nina came and he needs to realize that I've given up so much to be the best mommy I can for her and he needs to do the same to be the best Daddy. Nothing in this world should be more important than Nina(and me foreal-lol). So, some days are very good and others are just OK, but I made a vow to never have another horrible day with him. Its not worth it. I refuse to argue about a situation that doesn't have a positive solution. Going around in circles about issues that aren't going to change or people/things that he allows to hold us up...not happening no more. Again, I think he recognizes the change.
Overall, life is good. My relationship with God is growing stronger daily. I love the calm that has come into my life. I'm happy with my semi-boring life now. Work, Nina, sleep and extra curricular activities when I can fit them in. My sistahgirlz always have my back and always available when its time to have girl time. I don't know where I would be without all of them. They are the greatest aunts...Nina is so blessed and so am I. No complaints here, just a lot of smiling(:
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