Nice, Rainy & Relaxing Weekend

What a wonderful weekend. The weather was so nasty. It rained for at least 4 days straight and I was so looking forward to doing absolutely nothing. With the exception of having to braid hair Saturday morning and taking Nina to her cousin Chase's b-day party, my weekend was very relaxing. Nina & I stayed in our pj's. Nellie came up early Saturday morning to sit with Nina while I did hair & later that evening, me, Nina & Will chilled. Sunday, I slept in...the rain was sounding too good and I did not want to take Nina out in it. We layed around most of the day until around 5, then we went to Marshalls. The rain cleared up and Nina was being very hyper so I decided to get her out of the house. We ended up going to visit Mommy and ate dinner with her & Biggie. Nikki ended up coming over as well so that was nice seeing everyone at one time. Nina ate mashed potatoes , broccoli & rolls. She was stuffed-lol. Came home, showered, bathed Nina & got ready for work. I will be off on Wednesday because it will be Nina's first birthday. There is no way that I'm was coming to come to work on that day. I'm getting more emotional the closer the day gets. Her birthday party is this weekend and I'm looking forward to that as well. What started out as a small family gathering has turned into a major celebration. Oh well, she deserves it, she's the best!!!

Nina's Christening

This weekend was very nice. My babygirl's christening was on Saturday and it turned out so nice. It was a beautiful ceremony and it turned out better than I ever imagined. The devil tried to ruin my day from the beginning but a few hours later, he was defeated as always. My babygirl being christened was very emotiional for me. From all that she went through in the beginning to now being 100% healthy...I can't do anything but praise God for his marvelous work. So many friends & family came out to witness and like always, I was so grateful. Bishop Coates did an awesome job. He spoke on children and what God's word has to say about children & raising them. He also mentioned Nina representing healing beause of all she went through. It was just awesome. My life has definately been changed, I can just feel it.
Its always alot of work when you have people coming to the house & all, but my girls stepped in and made everything happen. Everyone was happy & full so that always makes me smile. I thank GOD once again for his many blessings. He just continues to bless me over & over & I'm so grateful.

Here I go again...all over the place with my feelings & emotions. I have alot on my mind...alot of decisions to make just not sure how to go about doing them or in what order. Today is Friday and I'm looking forward to the weekend. Nothing concrete on my agenda but just a few things I need to do. I have no clients tomorrow so that menas that Nina & I will get to sleep in-YEAH!!! I love it when her and I can sleep in late and play in the morning.

I'm in the process of trying to find somewhere to take a mini vacation. I'm considering somewhere on a beach not too far. I'm working on getting my finances in complete order and I'm almost there so I son't want to spend too much money. But I do need some time to unwind and kick back. I plan to take Nina with me so we won't be gone to long.

I'm in a real unusual mood once again. I'm living in my head right now...I amaze myself sometimes. I'm praying for a breakthrough on a lot of matters and I know God is going to work it out, its just going to take time. In the meantime, I'm just enjoying life and staying on my toes; watching what's going on over top of me, around me and even below.

I hate when people think they're getting over on me. It really bothers me when people think they have me fooled...silly. I'm such a bright individual and I can detect when something is going on and I'm such a detective...if I'm looking for something, I normally find it with no problem. And strangely, sometimes it just falls in my lap....lol...I keep my eyes & ears open at all times just so I won't be caught slippin.

So today is Friday, I'm remaining focused cause its just in my DNA. I have so many things I'm ready to make happen but I have to be patient(something that's very hard for me).

Rambling.......

Been in 2 meetings already and I've only been at work for a few hours
I want a new job
I like my job but its starting to become a headache
I want to be closer to home
I miss Nina
I love it when I wake up and I get to spend time with Nina before coming to work
Her smiles make my heart jump
My grandmother is the best
I'm so glad she's able to care for Nina while I'm at work
I worry too much
I wish I could hit the lottery and be a stay at home mom
and write books, bake cakes & do whatever the hell I want all day
I hope my mother is having a great time in Atlantic City
I hope she finds a great job once she starts working again
I love my girlfriends
I wish we could spend at least one whole day, once a week together doing whatever
I love being a mommy
One day I want to be a wife(that's how I feel today)
I miss that overwhelming feeling of being in love
Sometimes being in a relationship is too much work
I'm so focused on being Nina's mommy and ensuring she has the best life
I'm working on not letting nonsense consume me
I'm an amazing catch(at least that's what I'm told)
90% of the time I feel so sexy
I love looking at myself
I love my skin tone
I'm glad Nina is a chocolate baby
My sister will find out what she's having next week
I can't wait...I hope its a boy
I'm tickled about us being mommy's
I need to clean my house
I can't find the time to do anything
but I'm ok with it
People who complain all the time blow me
I need my truck washed
Need I mention how much I LOVE my new X5
I hate putting gas in it but I love the ride
I wish I could get Facebook at work
maybe that wouldn't be a good idea cause I wouldn't get any work done
I love having dialogue with men...they give the best advice
Some of my best friends are men...they keep it real with me
Why do they think no one is good enough for me?
But when they talk about themselves, they wouldn't be any good for me either(lol).
I have too many shoes
I wish I could give them all away and start over
I want to repaint some of the rooms in my house
but I would have to hire someone because I hate painting
I'm hungry
I have some leftover Shrimp Fried Rice and I don't really want it
its to nasty outside to go out plus I can't think of anything I really want to eat
Can't wait to go home and see my babygirl
I love her so-ooooo much
I need a vacation
I think I'm going to take a mini one in September even if my funds are tight
who cares, u only live once
I want to wear this new bathing suit I bought last year
I feel like dancing
93.9 is pumpin Biggie
I can picture myself on top of a table grooving
I can't get the picture of the sun setting in Cancun out of my head
I guess that's where I need to be trying to go soon
Nina will be 1 in 3 months
Time is flying now
I enjoy watching her grow
I want to do something
I'm contemplating if its a good idea...lol
I think its a great idea....I think(hahaha)
I'm done...

State of Relationships...

This week has been one hell of a week as it pertains to relationships. At least 3 people I know are going through breakups/seperations from their mates. I just wonder if being in a relationship is even worth the energy sometimes. Putting my own relationship aside, I've been talking to friends who are struggling with starting their life over after a lengthy relationship, friends who are dealing with the shock of finding out their mate was cheating on them, friends who realize that their marriage cannot be salvaged...so many relationships that are in trouble. It leads me to wonder if it is safe to put your all into a person. We all are human and we're going to make mistakes, but to continuosly make the same mistakes over & over is uncalled for.

One of my friends recently found out her ex is getting married to his "jump-off" and that is so disturbing. How do I console a friend after something so tragic...it is very hard. I don't know the right things to say because I'm very angry and I want her to be able to express how she really feels without hearing me curse & tell her how awful the man she still loves is. This is all craziness...

I also have a friend who wants to be in a relationship so bad. She feels like she's missing so much but I always explain to her that its hard work maintaining a relationship. And for her to be grateful that she has this time to get int o herself and wait for God to send her the man he has for her. That's the key, "wait for God" because in this day & time, I wouldn't trust anyone who I didn't feel was sent directly from God.

I'm going to continue this blog later because I'm still fired up and I can go on and on.

Overwhelmingly Blessed

I woke up this morning feeling extremely good but most of all blessed. Not sure why exactly but I know that once I got up, I felt so good. As I began to get ready for work, all I could think about was just how good God is and how he continues to bless me over & over & how I never want to take all that he's done for me for granted. With so much going on in the world & my own personal life, I have so many reasons to be thankful. My life has been good...overall, I have no reason to complain because God has been that good. Not to mention when I wake up to my precious baby girl Nina, I get filled up as if I just had her yesterday. She is EVERYTHING to me and I know God would've never blessed me with her if he had not thought I deserved her. She's my miracle baby and based on what she went through early on, I know that God is a healer, a miracle worker and he answers prayers. Once I dropped her off to my mother, I began to thank him once again because my mother is the best. She doesn't hesitate to be there for me and getting up at 5am in the morning to get Nina without complaining just makes my heart happy. This morning when I called her to let her know we were on our way, she was up & ready to get Nina just so I can get to work early. She is dealing with her own personal issues, especially being laid off but still manages to kick in and be there for my sister & I and every chance I get, I tell her "thank u". Once again, another reason to be so thankful because God didn't have to give me such a compassionate mother. And my Ganny...I get filled up every time I talk about her because she is 72yrs old and she cares for my baby everyday. Its something that she said she couldn't see herself not doing but once again...to be able to come to work and concentrate on providing for myself & Nina and not have to worry about her well-being is nothing short of a blessing. Most people aren't able to see their grandparents living but I have both sets of grandparents and Nina has great-grandparents on both sides.

As I sit here and read about the victims of the Metro crash, my heart is heavy...everyday I'm commuting along with my friends & loved ones and that could've been any of us. Everyday is an honor to be able to wake up and have another chance at life. God provides so many of us the opportunity to become better people and I thank him for opening my eyes to so many things, which has allowed me to appreciate life, treat others better and just be an overall positive person in this crazy world.

So today, I'm overwhelmingly blessed, grateful, thankful, etc...I can't say it enough, God is so good.

I'm so Blessed

Once again, I realize that I'm so blessed. God continues to show me over & over again that he will always look out for me. And even during times when I may not understand why certain things happen, if I just keep still, he'll confirm how great he is. So, I want to give a shout out to the greatest man...GOD...for continuing to send an abundance of blessings my way.

The last 2 weeks has been crazy. I got in a car accident and the man who rear-ended me totaled my car. I was so not prepared to get a new car right now, especially with me just returning back to work. Thank God for great credit and the fact that I kept my car in such good condition because I'm now able to put a nice down payment on the car of my dreams...BMW X5. I've been screaming about this SAV for years and this weekend, I will be picking it up. Not only that, I'm able to have affordable payments so that has eased alot of the stress of me thinking I would be living paycheck-to-paycheck. I also thank God that Nina wasn't with me when the accident occurred and that I wasn't hurt too bad. I was sore for a few days & from time-to-time, I get a little uncomfortable, but overall, I'm good & it could've been worse.

Work is going ok. It just seems like its so much to do now that I'm back to work. Schedules have been working out with getting Nina to Ganny so I can't complain. Will & I have been working well with getting her to & from Ganny and my mother is a big help as well. She was recently laid off but once again, she's able to be around to help out with Nina and now...soon to be my nephew or niece who will be here sometime in December. So many things are going on and God is right in the midst of it all...doing what he does best-BLESSINGS!!!!

Ms. Nina is doing so good. Just growing up so fast, the time is just getting away from us, She's now flipping, grabbing everything, trying to stand up and getting so fat. She loves to eat...and we love feeding her. Being her Mommy is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Everyday that I look at her, I can't help but thank God for blessing Will & I with her. We love her so much. She's changing everyday...and she's so much fun. Will & I are always fighting over her. I hope she knows that she has 2 parents that simply adore her.

Another week is here and once again, I'm looking forward to the weekend. Nowadays, it doesn't seem like there's enough time in the day to do everything I need too so I look forward to the weekends. Once again...I'm so blessed!!!!