Overwhelmingly Blessed

I woke up this morning feeling extremely good but most of all blessed. Not sure why exactly but I know that once I got up, I felt so good. As I began to get ready for work, all I could think about was just how good God is and how he continues to bless me over & over & how I never want to take all that he's done for me for granted. With so much going on in the world & my own personal life, I have so many reasons to be thankful. My life has been good...overall, I have no reason to complain because God has been that good. Not to mention when I wake up to my precious baby girl Nina, I get filled up as if I just had her yesterday. She is EVERYTHING to me and I know God would've never blessed me with her if he had not thought I deserved her. She's my miracle baby and based on what she went through early on, I know that God is a healer, a miracle worker and he answers prayers. Once I dropped her off to my mother, I began to thank him once again because my mother is the best. She doesn't hesitate to be there for me and getting up at 5am in the morning to get Nina without complaining just makes my heart happy. This morning when I called her to let her know we were on our way, she was up & ready to get Nina just so I can get to work early. She is dealing with her own personal issues, especially being laid off but still manages to kick in and be there for my sister & I and every chance I get, I tell her "thank u". Once again, another reason to be so thankful because God didn't have to give me such a compassionate mother. And my Ganny...I get filled up every time I talk about her because she is 72yrs old and she cares for my baby everyday. Its something that she said she couldn't see herself not doing but once again...to be able to come to work and concentrate on providing for myself & Nina and not have to worry about her well-being is nothing short of a blessing. Most people aren't able to see their grandparents living but I have both sets of grandparents and Nina has great-grandparents on both sides.

As I sit here and read about the victims of the Metro crash, my heart is heavy...everyday I'm commuting along with my friends & loved ones and that could've been any of us. Everyday is an honor to be able to wake up and have another chance at life. God provides so many of us the opportunity to become better people and I thank him for opening my eyes to so many things, which has allowed me to appreciate life, treat others better and just be an overall positive person in this crazy world.

So today, I'm overwhelmingly blessed, grateful, thankful, etc...I can't say it enough, God is so good.

I'm so Blessed

Once again, I realize that I'm so blessed. God continues to show me over & over again that he will always look out for me. And even during times when I may not understand why certain things happen, if I just keep still, he'll confirm how great he is. So, I want to give a shout out to the greatest man...GOD...for continuing to send an abundance of blessings my way.

The last 2 weeks has been crazy. I got in a car accident and the man who rear-ended me totaled my car. I was so not prepared to get a new car right now, especially with me just returning back to work. Thank God for great credit and the fact that I kept my car in such good condition because I'm now able to put a nice down payment on the car of my dreams...BMW X5. I've been screaming about this SAV for years and this weekend, I will be picking it up. Not only that, I'm able to have affordable payments so that has eased alot of the stress of me thinking I would be living paycheck-to-paycheck. I also thank God that Nina wasn't with me when the accident occurred and that I wasn't hurt too bad. I was sore for a few days & from time-to-time, I get a little uncomfortable, but overall, I'm good & it could've been worse.

Work is going ok. It just seems like its so much to do now that I'm back to work. Schedules have been working out with getting Nina to Ganny so I can't complain. Will & I have been working well with getting her to & from Ganny and my mother is a big help as well. She was recently laid off but once again, she's able to be around to help out with Nina and now...soon to be my nephew or niece who will be here sometime in December. So many things are going on and God is right in the midst of it all...doing what he does best-BLESSINGS!!!!

Ms. Nina is doing so good. Just growing up so fast, the time is just getting away from us, She's now flipping, grabbing everything, trying to stand up and getting so fat. She loves to eat...and we love feeding her. Being her Mommy is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Everyday that I look at her, I can't help but thank God for blessing Will & I with her. We love her so much. She's changing everyday...and she's so much fun. Will & I are always fighting over her. I hope she knows that she has 2 parents that simply adore her.

Another week is here and once again, I'm looking forward to the weekend. Nowadays, it doesn't seem like there's enough time in the day to do everything I need too so I look forward to the weekends. Once again...I'm so blessed!!!!

ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!

Yay.....I'm so glad today is Friday. I'm so looking forward to the weekend to do whatever..or maybe nothing. I know that I'll get to spend all my time with Nina, I miss her so much during the week. It always feels like our time is rushed once I pick her up in the evening. My plans for this evening is to get some cleaning done around the house. I feel like I'm neglecting my house but I just don't have the time to stay up on it like I used too.

I've decided to stay at my house for another 3-4 years. I figure I do some improvements/changes to the house and in the next few years, I can buy a bigger home with a big yard so Nina can get a fly swingset. I'm in the process of doing my office over & switching Nina's nursery to the bigger room. Everyone suggested I do that first but I wasn't hearing it, plus I was pregnant and the thought of switching those rooms over was overwhelming. So now I'm going to switch her to the bigger room so she can have more space once she starts getting around & all. I'm kina anxious to get it done now so I can finishing getting the rest of her pictures hung up and have some more room for all her stuff.

Ramblin:
I'm so sleepy; I have 1 more hour before I can go home; I want 2 cookies from Au Bon Pain; I'm praying that my bus is on time today so I can get home at a decent time; my desk is a mess and I think I'm gonna keep it this way until Monday(triflin); my calender for the summer is filling up with so many things to do & places to go; I'm so happy to be able to visit people so they can see Nina; I will be glad when this weather decideds what it really wants to do; I can't wait to hear how Cyrus trip to the zoo went; I love my nephew, he's the sweetest little boy; I'm wondering if I'll get a niece or a nephew this time around; I can't stop yawning; I can't wait to get home; me & Nina's godmother are going to the new Whole Foods 2morrow & I can't wait; I hope it doesn't rain; I got a new purse yesterday & it is so hot; I wanna go shopping but I don't know what I want....TGIF!!!

MY 1st Mother's Day!!!!

This is surreal...I'm a mommy. It all became real when my phone starting ringing at 6am and my Blackberry was going crazy with messages. I was like, WOW...today is about me and not only do I celebrate my mom, I'm celebrated as well. Nina & Will got me the nicest cards and my new washer & dryer will be coming soon-YEAH!!!! My sister & I prepared breakfast for mom & Ganny and then Will, Nina & I went to Georgetown for the day. The weather was beautiful and people were everywhere. We also went to the NAtional HArbor and then we went to visit his mother to give her gifts and let her spend some time with Nina. I wasnt trying to deal with the crowded restaurants but we did get to Stoney River Steakhouse later that evening with no problem. The food was fantastic as usual and I was tired. It was a full day but a very special one.

I thank God for allowing me to be able to be a mommy...its one of the best things I've ever done. I'm also thankful for Will being a great Daddy and being so hands-on helping me to raise Nina. I can't thank him enough for all that he does to make me & Nina's life so sweet. I'm most thankful for the most precious baby, Ms. Nina Nicole. She had to fight so early on in her life and that proves to me that she is truly destined for greatness. I couldn't stop thanking her enough for fighting so hard in her early months...I wouldn't be celebrating Mother's Day if she wasn't such a fighter so she's to be celebrated as well. SO now I'm looking forward to celebrating Father's Day, a holiday that I never celebrated but now I have a reason to do so.

I'm still smiling...it was a good day!!!!

Where Did the Weekend Go????

Its Monday already, I can't believe the weekend is over. I was looking forward to my weekend to spend with Nina and to get some rest...I did both of those things but it just went by so fast. Friday, Mom came over to spend some time with Nina and I did hair. Nina & got to bed around 11ish. Woke up Saturday morning and I held Nina all morning. I missed her this week since I went back to work and I know she's used to having me hold her so, that will be her treat on the weekends. We did absolutely nothing. Nellie came up to visit on Saturday amd my grandmother came over for a few as well. Will came down Saturday afternoon and we jusut chilled. Its funny how we always had something to do but now that Nina is here, chilling in the house is sufficient. Wanted to go to church on Sunday but the nasty weather kept me in. I didn't want to take Nina out in the mess. Watched Cy for Nikki while she went to church and me, Will & Nina laid around for the rest of the day. Did get a chance to wash some clothes, cook dinner & give Nina a bath.

Overall, I didn't do anything this weekend, but that was my plan anyway. I'm back to work for a full week and I'm tired yet thankful to have a job and to be able to live a comfortable lifestyle. Looking forward to my upcoming long weekend & my first Mother's Day. It feels so funny to be saying that I'm a mother but I'm loving it. Don't have any plans for the weekend but I'm looking forward to spending time with Nina and doing whatever it is I want to do.

BACK ON THE GRIND





I'm back to work(3rd day)...things are starting to come full circle. Nina is getting used to being with Ganny and her Dad & I are working well together with getting her to Ganny. This morning her Dad put her ear to the phone so I could talk to her and she was making all kinds of noise everytime I would say something. It made my heart melt to hear her sound so happy this morning. Its so funny picking her up in the evening, she gives me the strangest looks like, 'mommy where have u been'. My grandmother is loving & spoiling her so much so I know I have my hands full.

Yesterday was my second day back to work...not bad at all. Started with a 4:00am wake-up, shower & just as soon as I began to get dressed...who should I hear playing & cooing..Ms. Nina Nicole. I walked over to look at her and she gives me the biggest smile...dimples & all. What a refreshing way to get the day started. I tried to get her to go back to sleep but she wanted to play so...I sat aside 10 minutes to tickle her, play with her feet and give her nose kisses(our lil game we play). She refused to go back to sleep so every room I had to go in to get ready for work, I took her with me. Even while I was cooking my breakfast, I put her in her bouncy seat and she watched me while I cooked. She's the funniest baby. My mom kept her for me until it was time for her to go to Ganny's at 7am. So Nina & I were out of the house at 5am to my mom's where I fed her and rocked her to sleep before I left for work. I was really missing her when I left this morning but...I always tell her that Mommy has to work so I can give her the world when she's able to ask for it(lol).

My first day back to work was so exciting. President Obama came to my job to speak to us and I thought...what an ideal day to return to work. I was able to get very good pictures of him so Nina can have them in her scrapbook. Everyone was happy to see me back to work but most of all to see me happy & smiling & to know that Nina is great. Everyone can't believe that all my baby weight is gone(which wasn't much). I must admit that its refreshing to not have to worry about losing weight(that would just be another thing for me to worry about). Although I'm looking good, I still don't feel 100%. I havent been in the gym for almost a year. My body is used to that 3-4 day workout but I can't find time. So I continue to eat good & walk stairs as much as possible to keep my body tight.

Today, I'm feeling extra blessed. I feel like I'm floating and I know that God and all his blessings have so much to do with it. He has allowed me to grow more spirtually and I'm not taking anything for granted. A friend of mine told me today that I sound different...he said its something about the way I speak that has him excited about hearing what I've been up too. We haven't talked in over 6 mths and I was catching him up on what's been going on with me since the last time we talked. He was amazed at how strong I was/am through the whole ordeal with Nina but he followed with telling me how he always admired the way I carried myself, how I had a ray of "specialness" when he first met me and how he believes that God has big plans for me...hmn.... This grown man told me that I brought tears to his eyes when we talked...very powerful. He is someone who I admire and to hear him speak so highly of me confirmed that...maybe something good is about to happen...I believe it is. I have so many things that I want to do...and I'm going to make it happen, not only for me but for Nina. Everything I do is for a better life for her...she deserves it.

Countdown...

Its almost time for me to return to work. I've been out of work for a total of 6mths. I would love to stay home a little longer but its time for me to get back into the workforce. I'm so blessed to have been able to be home with her. She was in the hospital for 89 days so it was imperative for me to be home with her once she was released. I went to visit her everyday with the exception of one day when I was sick. So Nina is used to having her mommy in her face. Once I brought her home, it was hard because she was so small but the last few months has been so much fun. She's now over 11pds so my baby is a big girl. We've been to the mall, parks, visiting & shopping. I was looking forward to the day that I could take her out and now that time has come.

I'm going through separation anxiety but I'm so blessed to have my grandmother to care for her once I return to work. I'm going to miss being in her face everyday but at least I know she'll be in good hands. She is going to receive so much love and I know that I can relax while I'm away from her during the day.

God is so good..for so many reasons...this whole ordeal has made me a stronger person. I know that God never left me(even when I thought he did) and he was right by my side through this whole ordeal. Things are so much better now...or should I say, things are GREAT!!!! I'm loving being a mommy, its a feeling I can't begin to explain.