I'm back to work(3rd day)...things are starting to come full circle. Nina is getting used to being with Ganny and her Dad & I are working well together with getting her to Ganny. This morning her Dad put her ear to the phone so I could talk to her and she was making all kinds of noise everytime I would say something. It made my heart melt to hear her sound so happy this morning. Its so funny picking her up in the evening, she gives me the strangest looks like, 'mommy where have u been'. My grandmother is loving & spoiling her so much so I know I have my hands full.
Yesterday was my second day back to work...not bad at all. Started with a 4:00am wake-up, shower & just as soon as I began to get dressed...who should I hear playing & cooing..Ms. Nina Nicole. I walked over to look at her and she gives me the biggest smile...dimples & all. What a refreshing way to get the day started. I tried to get her to go back to sleep but she wanted to play so...I sat aside 10 minutes to tickle her, play with her feet and give her nose kisses(our lil game we play). She refused to go back to sleep so every room I had to go in to get ready for work, I took her with me. Even while I was cooking my breakfast, I put her in her bouncy seat and she watched me while I cooked. She's the funniest baby. My mom kept her for me until it was time for her to go to Ganny's at 7am. So Nina & I were out of the house at 5am to my mom's where I fed her and rocked her to sleep before I left for work. I was really missing her when I left this morning but...I always tell her that Mommy has to work so I can give her the world when she's able to ask for it(lol).
My first day back to work was so exciting. President Obama came to my job to speak to us and I thought...what an ideal day to return to work. I was able to get very good pictures of him so Nina can have them in her scrapbook. Everyone was happy to see me back to work but most of all to see me happy & smiling & to know that Nina is great. Everyone can't believe that all my baby weight is gone(which wasn't much). I must admit that its refreshing to not have to worry about losing weight(that would just be another thing for me to worry about). Although I'm looking good, I still don't feel 100%. I havent been in the gym for almost a year. My body is used to that 3-4 day workout but I can't find time. So I continue to eat good & walk stairs as much as possible to keep my body tight.
Today, I'm feeling extra blessed. I feel like I'm floating and I know that God and all his blessings have so much to do with it. He has allowed me to grow more spirtually and I'm not taking anything for granted. A friend of mine told me today that I sound different...he said its something about the way I speak that has him excited about hearing what I've been up too. We haven't talked in over 6 mths and I was catching him up on what's been going on with me since the last time we talked. He was amazed at how strong I was/am through the whole ordeal with Nina but he followed with telling me how he always admired the way I carried myself, how I had a ray of "specialness" when he first met me and how he believes that God has big plans for me...hmn.... This grown man told me that I brought tears to his eyes when we talked...very powerful. He is someone who I admire and to hear him speak so highly of me confirmed that...maybe something good is about to happen...I believe it is. I have so many things that I want to do...and I'm going to make it happen, not only for me but for Nina. Everything I do is for a better life for her...she deserves it.
