Anger...Resentment...Forgiveness

I'm dealing with so much right now...but in the midst of this storm, God is still good. I know that getting rid of this anger is long overdue but, I thought I did. So now I'm here, walking around with this load of anger that has made me say & do a lot of things that I wish I could take back but...I can't. Most of it I meant to say...but a lot of it I didn't. I was told that you should never let a person or situation get the best of you where you end up acting out of character...well...I've been out of character for some time and I'm making this promise to myself that I'm going to do something about it. I am on a journey to releasing & forgiving...this is much needed and I'm ready.

First thing I plan to do is continue to pray...it always helps.
Second, I plan to journal...write out all the things that I'm hurt about, why and resolutions.
Third, I plan to seek out someone who is bias and can listen and help me put all of my feelings in perspective. I have plenty of close friends who will listen but because they care so much about me, I know it would be hard for them to put their feelings aside.
Fourth, I plan to make some changes in my life.
Fifth, I will work on forgiving so I won't continue being weighed down.
LAstly, I will start fresh to ensure that I NEVER allow myself to experience this type of hurt ever again.

This is so important because I love my life, I'm a happy person, very seldom do I allow things to get me down and most of all, I have another person to care for. If I'm not all together, how can I be the best mommy to Nina. I want her to experience her mommy at her best.

Today I start my journey...wish me luck!!