Rambling....That's What I Do

Today I'm feeling GREAT!! Actually, I've been feeling this way for quite some time-thank God. I've put a lot of things in perspective and realized that each day that I live, is going to be a good day. Bad things may occur throughout my day but I won't allow anything to consume me. With that said, life is good and I'm walking around feeling real light. My burdens have been lifted, my head is semi-clear and my heart is no longer heavy. I prayed about it, God answered and now I'm good.

Last weekend was my girl Ria & Byrons wedding...it was beautiful. The both of them looked so happy and it showed through the smiles on their faces. I've been rolling with these 2 since the day they met...been routing for them and I'm finally at ease just knowing that they're husband & wife. I'm watching them...keeping my eye on them to set the example for us young folks who may have put love on hold for a minute. I now feel like everyone is looking at me sideways like I need to be the next one to get married. I've never been a follower...so I'm in no hurry to get married because most of my girlz have jumped the broom. I can wait for a ring, I want my love life to be right. I guess that comes with me being such a planner and/or always wanting things to be done right. I can wait for that type of commitment, especially if it means that its going to be with the person who God has for me.

I'm starting to feel myself again. I've always been in love with myself(some say too much) but I can say that I haven't felt that feeling that I've always felt about myself. Like that 'poppin my collar' type of feeling(lol). The last couple of months I've been staring at myself more, feeling my swag(haha)and just getting that strut(that's what Will calls it) back. Ive purchased a few pair of F'em girl shoes...4-inch platforms and they are so hot. I feel so extra sexy in them and I love the way my legs look when I have them on. Get em' girl(lol).

He's been extra expressive lately. Why does this happen...as soon as I think I got it all figured out, here he comes...why? I know he loves me but why wait until I'm at ease to now want to talk, express and all that break up to make up stuff. I understand that you love us and you want your family...got that...I also realize that you know that once I leave that you are going to be left to really think about all that has transpired in the last 4 years all by yourself. I never intended for him to be alone...I still don't, but right now, its not about him at all...its about me and baby girl and our happiness and well being. I'm not working anymore but I will meet him part of the way if I believe he's ready to fight, other than that...business as usual.

I realized that I don't have alot of time to myself anymore. Baby girl takes up all my extra time. I'm not complaining but its a task just to get a pedicure now adays. I hate leaving her...I feel like she's being cheated already during the week when I only have about 3 hours to spend with her before I put her to bed. All my time is devoted to her and Im ok with it. I haven't been to the gym in almost 2 years. Its a good thing that I eat healthy and I already have a nice shape cause I would be mad. I'm incorporating some extra walking in my daily routine because its about to get hot and I need to get back in my 2 piece.

Ok...enough rambling...life is good and I can't wait to get off to get home to baby girl. That's the highlight of my life!