Life Is Good

I'm feeling great..I mean really, feeling refreshed. For the last few weeks, I've been able to get rid of some of the negative things that were holding me up and taking up way too much of my mind space. I've been talking to God alot and I asked for this peace & tranquility and like always, he came through. I'm not saying that things don't still get under my skin or every now and then I don't want to shake the mess out of someone but I can truly say that I feel great.

So many wonderful things are taking place. This Friday, one of my girlz is getting married. Maria & Byron are tying the knot and I'm so excited. I'm looking forward to experiencing them exchange their vows and promise everlasting love to one another. I feel really good about the 2 of them. Alot of times, I attend weddings and I get this strange feeling like...I'm not sure if they should be doing this but, I know that Ria & Byron are ready. The both of them have gone through so much but they both want & live for the same things and I know that they're going to be the example for black love.

My baby girl is doing great. Every day she impresses me and wears me out at the same time. She's walking and into everything. I sometimes look at her and just can't believe that she is mine. I stare at her eyes and I feel her hair and I'm just in awe. I know she realizes how much I love her and she will never have to question whether her mommy has her back, because I will/do.

Her Dad & I are doing ok. I think he recognizes that things have changed. I'm not sure if he's comfortable with it but I think he's happy to know that all the fighting & bickering is behind us(I think). He knows that I love him very much and I want the best for him and whatever makes him happy, I want him to go for it. What I don't want is to feel like I'm not appreciated. My life has changed drastically once Nina came and he needs to realize that I've given up so much to be the best mommy I can for her and he needs to do the same to be the best Daddy. Nothing in this world should be more important than Nina(and me foreal-lol). So, some days are very good and others are just OK, but I made a vow to never have another horrible day with him. Its not worth it. I refuse to argue about a situation that doesn't have a positive solution. Going around in circles about issues that aren't going to change or people/things that he allows to hold us up...not happening no more. Again, I think he recognizes the change.

Overall, life is good. My relationship with God is growing stronger daily. I love the calm that has come into my life. I'm happy with my semi-boring life now. Work, Nina, sleep and extra curricular activities when I can fit them in. My sistahgirlz always have my back and always available when its time to have girl time. I don't know where I would be without all of them. They are the greatest aunts...Nina is so blessed and so am I. No complaints here, just a lot of smiling(: