TGIF!!!!
This has been the longest & busiest week that I've experienced in a long time. Even though I had Monday off and Wednesday was a training day, it seemed like it took Friday forever to get here so, TGIF!!!!

I have no concrete plans for the weekend except for dinner with the ladies on Sunday. Its been a minute since we all got together so on Sunday, we plan to have dinner at Maggiano's and whatever else we want to do afterwards. So much is going on this weekend. The Afram is all weekend with a very nice line-up, but I'm not sure if I want to be out in that heat. Raheem Devaughn & Chrisette will be at Merriweather, but again, not sure if I want to be in the heat. My house is in need of a good cleaning, and I just don't feel like doing it. I've been on the hunt for a real good cleaning lady but, no success.

I need a vacation soon...my schedule is getting tighter. Next month is consumed with weddings & celebrations. When I say my weekends are all full, I mean they are full. Doesn't appear that I will have much time to do anything for myself so...I'm in search of a few days somewhere to relax, have fun & swim but that can't happen until early August or September.

So much is going on right now(not all bad), the economy is crazy...I feel broke(even though I'm not), my car is guzzling gas like crazy, feel like I can't shop(but that's a good thing, I have too much now), the days are going by so fast, I feel like I'm working like crazy(my boss is retiring on Monday), just life...but I'm blessed and I'm so glad that today is Friday.

Hot Weather/Hot Topic


This weekend was hot...I mean , the temperature outside was extremely unbearable. On Saturday, I got up early & did hair and just looking outside made me hot. I had a few things I needed to do but once I finished my last client, I took a drive to Whole Foods, picked up a few things to eat and came home to my cool house. Well all that came to a halt real fast. Main man & I were getting ready to order some movies on Pay-Per-View when out of nowhere, a strong wind came, then the rain, then the lightning and what do u know, the power goes out. Him & I just got quiet like, what now. Being that we have been going through some changes, I thought that watching some movies & chilling would take our mind off of discussing our relationship issues. Well...what do u know, once the power was out, all we had was each other and nothing to do but talk over candles. I was like, come on God, what are u trying to do. But it all worked out. We got a chance to talk(I was hoping the power would hurry & come back on), air out some matters that we keep sweeping under the rug; discussed some new matters that have surfaced and just trying to talk out some things to see where this relationship is going to end up. We needed that...somethings I can truly see clearer now. So, we ended up all night playing cards & playing Solitaire on my laptop until the wee hours of the morning.

Woke up the next morning to no power and a hot house. We end up going to breakfast and to Lowes so he could buy me a generator. I thought that was too much money to be spending but at least my food didn't go bad and we were able to get some cool air from the fan. The power end up coming back on around 6:30pm, just in time for dinner and the game. The house took forever to cool down but I was ever so grateful for power. Now I feel at ease if ever another storm comes through and I lose power. Now I know I got some back-up.

The weekend ended really cool, especially since I had Monday off. I was able to do a few things yesterday and come in the house and chill. The weather has been serious but I hear its suppose to cool down tonight(thank god). So, in spite of all the warm weather & loss of power, me & main man got a chance to talk(which is a breath of fresh air from all the fussing we've been doing lately); got a chance to have some fun like we use too; spend some quality time and just creating that bond that we always had from day one. Relationships are work...I swear...I want to give up sometimes...it can really wear u down but...that 4-letter word...will keep u pushing . So, I guess I gained something out of all this hot weather...a clear mind with a better understanding....

To be continued....

In Need Of a Getaway

That's what I need right now. I truly think some time alone-but away is what I need right now. Got alot going on in the brain, not enough time to process so I think a short getaway, included with a few spa treatments would do my body some good. The economy is so bad right now so I'm extra paranoid about spending money but I know this would be all worth it. Being home isn't going to do it...my phone ringing, people needing me for one thing or another, finding things to do around the house...I need to be in an unfamiliar place just to unwind...these past few weeks have been hectic.

Today I'm just extra emotional...thinking real hard, crying...for some reasons I can understand, but others...I don't have a clue. I guess this is my moment...I'll get through it. I have so many reasons to be happy right now but there's always something lingering that brings me back to this emotional state. Been praying ALOT lately...really need to...something I do often but finding myself doing g it alot. I know GOd answers prayers, he hears me when I ask him for things but he only gives me what I need & can handle so I'm trusting him as I always do to help me through whatever is weighing on me.

I'm just rambling...but foreal, I need a vacation, getaway, something...

Random Thoughts...blah..blah...blah...


Its been a while since I've blogged...life has just been like a roller coaster these last few months. Alot of things going on. Been doing alot of soul-searching. This life can bring so many different challenges whether it be personal or business. I've been trying to "clear the air" on alot of matters. I really think I'm just overdue for a vacation, but with the economy being so crazy, I'm just trying to make it. But all & all, God is good and I'm so blessed.

I returned back to work from an extended holiday weekend. I truly needed that time off and although I didn't do anything that I said I was going to do, one thing I did accomplish was getting some rest. So, my house is still not as clean as I want it to be; my refrigerator is still slightly empty cause I haven't felt like going grocery shopping; my office is still junky & my spare room is just a mess....I still enjoyed my time off. I'm sure one day soon I'll be able to get all those things done .

My sister Nikki graduates tomorrow. After more than 10 years, she will be getting her degree and I'm so happy for her. Its just the beginning of more things to come I'm sure. I'm planning her a party on Saturday and I'm already overwhelmed of all the people who are going to be attending and I haven't even been to the store to buy one thing...I'll get to it. But I am so happy for her. Go Nikki!!!!! I know how it feels to accomplish something that you have been trying to do for so long so she should be proud. I remember this time six years ago when I was graduating from Maryland...one of the best days of my life.

Summer is fast approaching and as I look at my calender, my summer is basically over already. Every weekend in June is basically booked with Warm Spirit functions, a bridal shower, cakes to bake...and July, that whole month is devoted to weddings, so love is still alive & kicking. I'm hoping that sometime in August I can get away with the girls for a long weekend & me & main man might be able to find sometime to get away too. We need it. Our relationship has been tested for the last few months, but we're still pressing on to make it work. We both agree that we want to work for this....we're not ready to give up on each other so...each day we're working at it...relationships are alot of work...I now know that love alone can't save it, both parties have to want to fight and boy are we fighting(lol). But I love him...thank God for that...enuf said.

2 Wrongs...Does it Really Not Make it Right???

Its been a while since I've blogged because I've been so consumed with business, personal and everyday issues & matters. So today, an issue that I've been dealing with for sometime has surfaced and caused me to question...do 2 wrongs make a right? Hmn...I do believe in karma and I know that a persons actions to something or someone(I guess both good & bad) will always reappear somewhere in that persons life and a consequence will eventually have to be served but sometimes I can't help to practice..when someone does something to me, I normally like to give them what they gave me. I'm not very good for waiting for that person to receive their "payback" or consequence, I want to be right there while they're experiencing it or I want to be sure that they feel what I once felt a from the result of something they did to me. I know that it isn't right, its not my call but I'm learning to try and not be so vindictive when it comes to certain matters.
Recently, I've been going through a series of emotional breakdowns and I'm realizing that when I feel like I'm giving my all, the results aren't always what I expect. I've been told before that I have very high expectations of others(probably because I have very high ones of myself) and that's why alot of times I get let down. I'm learning that everyone isn't going to see things the way I see them; everyone isn't going to agree with what I think is right; everyone isn't going to live their lives the way I think they should and most of all, life just isn't fair. So, as I go through this period of recognizing that just because someone does something that I don't like or doesn't feel right to me, there's no need for me to turn around and do to them what they've done to me, because it will only make matters worse. I need to trust that God will produce patience in my life and help me to understand that no matter how bad something may be, he is going to take control of the situation. And as long as I'm doing what is right, what someone else does will be taken care of, not by me, but by him so...in actuality...2 wrongs really don't make it really right...it just makes things feel ok for the moment....to be continued.

My weekend in Atlanta...

Last weekend I went to Atlanta to hang out with my cousin for her birthday. The weekend turned out to be a nice, definitely a refreshing break from being home. Although I normally don't hang out at clubs, I did alot of that over the weekend, but that's what my cuz wanted to do and that's what we did. I realized that the club scene is so not me anymore, but going to them occasionally is ok. I might've got the average of 10 hours of sleep over the whole weekend so I was exhausted when I got home on Monday. I also got a chance to go to a strip club(female) while I was there. I've always been curious as to what goes on in those places, and from what I heard, Atlanta was the best place to experience one first hand. And so I did, thanks to my good friend CR...he took me to 2 clubs. I must say that I was totally shocked to see that the ladies dance in the nude but it really didn't bother me, I actually was studying a few of them to get some moves(lol).

The weather was a little crazy. A tornado came through Atlanta and tore up downtown Atlanta. We weren't really affected except for the occasional rain showers, wind & inconsistent sunny skies. I guess I could see myself living in Atlanta only if I could make the money I'm making here, anything else is not going to happen. But overall, I was so happy to return home to my house, my bed, my own bathroom...just everything about home. Its funny how homesick I get when I go out of town...I'm just as anxious to return home as I am getting to my destination.

All Over the Place...that's me

I have so much going on right now...I don't know whether I'm coming or going. Although I love to stay busy, I just feel like I'm all over the place. I'm dealing with all kinds of things...projects at the house, side hustles that I'm trying to make happen, pressure on the full-time, relationship issues, family matters...I'm drained. I need sometime to sit down and sort out all of the things I have going on...I also need to prioritize, find out what's most important for me and my life at this time. I know there are things that can be put on hold, but I'm impatient and once I have in my mind that I'm going to make something happen, that's what I set out to do.

Currently, my kitchen is being remodeled. What started as a small leak from my refrigerator, has turned in to me deciding to remodel my kitchen. Its something that I've been wanting to do for some time and I know it will bring the value of my house up so its not a bad thing...just very time consuming & draining(I hate seeing my house a wreck). The project should be done by Friday...now all I can stress about is how I'm going to find time to get my house back in order...uugh.

Me and main man have been struggling for the past 2 weeks. This relationship stuff can be draining as well. I love him so much...am I willing to fight for this relationship...this week, I don't have the energy. We both are trying to accommodate one another's wants, respect each others space, try to understand one anothers differences and still be in love...its so hard. I know how challenging a relationship can be and I'm not the easiest person to be in a relationship with but I swear I've been trying...I've been working for this thing. He's happy with me, he doesn't want me to change, but I feel that I have to, just to be more comfortable so...I know we'll make it, I believe we will...I just have to go through the motions.

Work...I love my job, it can be so challenging at times(that's what I love), but its so hard working for & around people who can't get used to the fact that I'm just as smart as they are and I deserve to be recognized for my talents. The higher I climb this ladder, the more I see that being on top isn't always the best. But again, I love my job...alot of changes will be made in the next few months so I'm sure things will get better. I grateful for being so young and doing so well...so I'm not complaining, I'm just venting.

Side hustles..hair, cakes, event planning...my plate is so full. I'm still doing hair on the weekends, now cake orders are coming in...I love the hustle but my time is dwindling. I still enjoy doing hair and baking cakes is so therapeutic...I don't want to get to the point where I feel like I have to bake cakes, I want to do it because I love too. The event planning is going well...my Aunt & Uncles 50-year wedding renewal is going well. The time is fast approaching so right now I feel like its all coming together...all these side hustles, I'm doing what I love, getting some $$ at the same time...but it can also be draining...but I'm keeping it moving.

Family matters...oh gosh...they are what they are. So much has been going on. All I'm doing is praying and remaining still. I'm learning to not react everytime something happens and realizing that I'm not Superwoman. I hate it when I can't do something to make a situation better, but that's life. Everyone can't be on top...we all have to struggle and go through things...it only makes us stronger.

So, even though I'm all over the place, I know that God is going to see me through and it will all work out. I know that I'm finding myself praying more these days and I thank God for always bringing me peace...I may be all over the place but I know for sure that I'm going to be ok.

A Nervous Wreck!!!!

This morning at 4:30am, I dropped my mother and grandmother off to the airport. They were flying to Ft. Lauderdale to visit my uncle and his kids...but this was my grandmothers first flight. She has never, in her 71 years been on a plane and she was very nervous. She decided last year that she wanted to concur her fear of flying before she leaves this earth and this year was the year. She suffers from claustrophobia(just like me) and being in closed in places(elevators, tunnels...) is nerve wrecking and scary. Although I don't enjoy flying, I do it because there are places I want to see and in order to make it happen, I have to fly. But this morning, I was a nervous wreck. The look in her eyes when I picked her up said it all, "I'm terrified". When they got to the airport, mommy called to say that Ganny got more nervous so she gave her something to calm her down, but I just received the call and she made it!!!!!! I had a chance to speak with her and she was very emotional, being that she couldn't believe she did it, but she said she was fine and she could do it again. So, my nerves are better....I can finally get my day started now that I know they're safe in Florida and she's fine. They return on Monday, so I'm hoping that that flight goes as smooth as this one. Way to go Ganny!!!!!

VERY LONG WEEKEND

The weekend was very long. I was so looking forward to my 4 days to do whatever it was I wanted to do but...such as life...things happen that are beyond anyone's control. My long weekend started cool. My mom went into the hospital unexpectantly, so that wasn't cool...but she's doing fine and I'm happy about that. I was looking to spend some time with main man since the both of us were going to be off. We had a very chill Valentine's Day...drinks & appetizers at one of our favorite spots. Earlier, he showered me with flowers(calla lillies), balloons, etc at the job(how cute) and then he followed up that evening with not 1 but 2 very nice watches(Marc Jacobs & Michael Kors). I was shocked...I did need a new watch but 2 and by 2 of my favorite designers...I swear he's the best...I'm lovin him this week(lol). I bought him a glass chess board. He's been worrying me about learning to play chess so he could have someone to play with so...for a man who has almost everything, I thought a chessboard and a book for me to read to learn how to play was the perfect gift. He loved it.

The weekend started with me having a minor catastrophe at my house. My ice maker backed up and leaked and caused damage to my kitchen floor, basement walls, ceiling and carpet. I was done...upset..not as upset as I thought I would be but...I was prety upset. Thank god for insurance...they were on it right away and are handling the situation. My house was out of order all weekend. I had plans to have friends over for the All-Star game but that was all put off because of the state of my house. I'm blessed because I have insurance and I won't have to come out of pocket as much so..thank God.

Overall, the weekend ended up being productive. I painted my powder room(I hate painting), did some cleaning around the house, got the car serviced, picked up groceries, paid bills...rippin & runnin but I'm glad I handled 85% of my business. I'm looking at my finances and I have so much to spend money on in the next 6 months. I'm pretty good with managing my money so I'm sure I'll be ok, but I hate it when things get so tight.

I'm back at work today..work meets me at the door so I will be very consumed with official government business this week but...that's what I get paid to do...so I'm not complaining. Life is good...it can get crazy sometimes but over all, I'm good.

PRAYER!!!

That's all I need right now foreal....alot of it.

SHOES....PURSES....ETC....

I gotta have these shoes for the Spring...I must have them in my life. BCBG has the flyest shoes and they're also comfortable. I figure this shoe will go with anything...I gotta have them.

This bag is calling my name. Everyone who knows me know how I feel about Michael Kors. I love his clothes, perfume, bags, shoes...anything that he makes, I love it!!!!!

ME, MYSELF & I

I can honestly say that this weekend I got a chance to get in touch with myself. I wasn't in any particular mood or anything, I just felt like I needed some "me" time. It did help that I wasn't really feeling main man this weekend so I didn't have to worry about him being in my space too much. On Friday, the plan was to get together with some friends for a drink, but as soon as I got home, I immediately got out of my work clothes and in the bed. I looked at TV, talked on the phone, slept, read a magazine...slept....it was so refreshing. I don't get many Friday's where I can just come home & rest.

Saturday morning started the same. Up very early to take clients and I finished around 2pm. I thought of a thousand things I could've done but instead, I decided to put on some of my favorite cd's, put on my apron and I started baking a cake and cooking spaghetti. Cooking is very therapeutic for me so...I did that, then I decided to run me a lavender bath, lit some candles, put my ipod in the docking station, and sat back in the tub and just chilled. I than put on some cute pajamas and I was in the bed by 7:30. I could not believe I was allowing myself to just chill when there's so many other things I could've been doing. I laid in the bed, talked on the phone, watched a few shows on my new tv, read & finally went to sleep around 11:00pm.

Sunday morning, I overslept for church so I called my girl Tiny and asked did she want to go to brunch, she needed to get out of the house for some "girlfriend time" so she said yes. Then we called Tarita & Nellie and the 4 of us met for brunch. It was so nice to just get together with my girls and share a few mimosas, good food and great conversation. Its always nice to get together with the girls...we need to do that more often. After brunch, me & Nellie(my favorite "shopping" girlfriend) and I went to to Marshalls. We didn't do too much damage, but we had fun browsing and the both of us left out the store with some nice pillows(lol)....that's it.

So...the weekend was very chill, I absolutely needed it, loved it and plan to do that more often. Sometimes I can just get overwhelmed over all the things that I have on my plate that I just keep moving and never take time to just chill out. After this weekend, I know I will be chilling more often.

My Body is Thanking Me...

Yesterday, I returned to the gym after not going for about 6 weeks. Going to the gym was just a part of my lifestyle....2-3 days a week I was in the gym doing cardio and some type of yoga/pilates or tai chi. I fell off the week prior to my vacation. I was so busy with packing, getting my hair done, trying to get my workload down so I could enjoy my vacation with no worries. Once I came back, the holidays were beginning therefore, I was cooking, shopping and doing everything else except for going to the gym. Then, Christmas came around and I was eating whenever & whatever I wanted, just because it was the holiday and cause I wanted too. Every week I was telling myself that I was going to start back working out again, but I was getting real comfortable coming home doing absolutely nothing so needless to say, I never made it. What's good about me is that I eat healthy...not because I make myself, but because I love healthy foods. Fruits, vegetables & whole grain products is just a part of my life...I love it.

So, yesterday, I made up my mind to return back to the gym. All day I was so excited just thinking about it so I couldn't wait to get there and workout. When I got there, the gym was packed(everyone trying to lose weight for the new year) but it was nice to see some of the people I was used to seeing back when I was going on a regular. My BodyFLow instructor was shocked to see me...she was wondering what had happened but I explained to her what was going on in the last 6 or more weeks and she understood. So, I did some cardio, took a class and now I'm feeling real good. My body isn't aching too bad but I know that once I pick up the pace a little it will.

Working out for me is so refreshing...my body really appreciates it. I sleep better, I feel better and overall I look better. I know my body is thanking me right now...I can't wait to hit the gym tonight...its on!!!!!

What a difference a conversation makes.......

I have a alot of male friends who I can talk to about anything. I love talking to them because it gives me another perspective on how to look at a situation. But one of my male friends & I have been at a tug-of-war for the last week or more about a few things. We haven't really talked in a minute(mostly because we're both so busy), but the last time we spoke, we had a disagreement about something so of course I was taking his lack of 'trying to contact me' personal. So yesterday, I decided to call him to say hello. After leaving a few messages & emails, he finally responded and I explained to him that we needed to talk. Later that evening, he finally called and we had a very deep conversation. The conversation was a long overdue one that I must say I'm glad took place.

In the beginning, I found myself being very defensive but with time, I began to hear that person out and really listen to what he had to say. The convo went on like a tennis match for the first 15 minutes(that blew me) but after we both realized that neither of us were really listening to the other....we began to talk about what the issues were and within 20 minutes, I realized we were getting somewhere. My friend & I are so-oooo much alike when it comes to certain things(especially debates) and I've found that neither of us gives up until we get our point across. We've been friends for sometime now and we both have alot of similarities in the way we handle business so I can always count on him to bounce ideas & things off of when it comes to certain business & personal matters. But, when we disagree....whoa...its like a damn severe storm...the dark cloud sits over our friendship until we work it out and that sometimes annoys me. But that's what happens with friends; we can't always agree and we may not always see things the same.

So, we both realized that it was a big misunderstanding on both of our behalf...of course I was a little extra because I'm emotional(and that's what females do) but he assured me that our friendship is still as tight as the day we met, and that just because we don't agree on issues doesn't mean that out friendship is doomed and that even though we're the opposite sex, when you care about someone, their feelings do matter. So with that said, we're cool again...I really missed talking to him cause he's just one of those friends that makes me laugh in the midst of craziness, always encourages me when it comes to my success and all the things I want to do when I grow up(lol) and he's not a push-over(he lets me know when I'm wrong or gotten out of hand). So I guess we all need a friend like that and I realized that instead of reacting & brushing things under the rug, if you just talk it out....and that person is sincerely a good friend.....u should do everything in your power to work it out.

The New Year is here...it seems like I was just celebrating 2007...that means that the year has gone by so fast. I can't really say anything bad about 2007 except that it was a fast year...alot of things happened(both good & bad) but it just seems that it went by so fast. I let go of alot of things & people in 2007 and I know it was all for the best. I don't have any regrets about any decisions that I've made. I don't really make resolutions anymore...I find that I break them soon after I make them so...I just write things down and mentally prepare myself for whatever it is that I want to do, change or make happen.

With that said, I plan to coast in 2008. Live each day like its my last & do what makes me happy. I have a few things that I know that I need to make happen(become better organized, not shop as much cause I really have everything, not let little things get me frazzled, set new goals, decide what I really want to do career wise....) so I plan to concentrate on those things. I'm still on the fence about purchasing a new home....I still think I'm ready to build but I'm just not sure if its a good time(I'm so tight with money); I want to buy my X5...I'm almost sure this is going to happen real soon(I deserve it, just don't want the note); I think I'm ready to have a child(this changes every other week...not sure if I'm ready, if its the right time....); I want a new job(I normally become bored after about 2-3 years in a position)...so many things that I'm "all over the place" with but I'm sure that I'll be able to make some concrete decisions soon.

The holidays were GREAT!!! The family was back together having the time of our life. We spent Thanksgiving, Xmas Eve & Xmas together. Last year was a rough year for us, but God brought us all back together again and I'm so glad he did. Me & main man's relationship has grown stronger...still got some kinks to work out but this year was definitely alot better than last year. All my girls are still my girls....we still are growing together emotionally, spiritually & just proving that black woman can be friends without all the drama. All our lives are so busy but we still got that bond that can't be broken.

Here's to the New Year 2008...looking forward to seeing what it has in store.

Wow...time sure does fly

I'm sitting here looking at my calendar and thinking, dag, December is almost over. This month has gone by so fast...it seems like I was just on vacation and that was over a month ago...wow. Well, December is here, the holidays are coming around and I must say that I'm finally getting in the spirit. I put my tree up last week and its beautiful. Mom came over and helped me decorate(she loves doing that). I didn't decorate as much as I normally do but the house still feels like Xmas. I got some shopping done, not much but I don't intend to do alot this year anyway. Me & my girl Nellie did some shopping last week(we picked up some things for ourselves too) and main man & I have been picking up a few things too. My sister & I hung out on Sunday and we picked up some gifts...I love my sister we had so much fun. We've always been close but it seems like the older we get, the closer we get. Today, I plan to go hit some stores to pick up a few things...I love giving gifts.
Last night, I started wrapping gifts so I feel like I'm moving right along. This is a short work week and than I'll be off for a few days. I'll get to enjoy the holidays and get some rest at the same time.

Today, I'm feeling good. So much better from the other day(what a difference a few days make).

Heavy....that's how I feel

Today is just one of those days...I'm feeling really heavy...like I'm carrying the world on my shoulders. I woke up this morning feeling "not so good" but I kept it moving and came on in to work. On my way to work, I stared out the window and began to think about all the things that are bothering me...it was kinda hard not to...just listening to my Ipod, its 5:30am, everyone on the bus is either sleeping, reading or doing what I'm doing(staring out the window thinking). Life can be so complicated at times...but I don't take living for granted....I'm blessed, it just happens to be one of those days.

I'm dealing with a variety of issues & matters, I've been just too busy to slow down and give those things some attention, but for some apparent reason, today is the day I decided to try to find some resolutions. So, I'm at work, its been a slow day, nothing really pressing and all I have is this time to think(I hate that about myself). I'm making conclusions to matters that I haven't even really dealt with, somethings I just want to be over. Then there are things that I need to happen in my life that just isn't happening...I need instant results, but I'm just not getting them. I know that I'm an impatient person and when I want something, I want it yesterday but I'm working on being patient(very hard for me).

I'm also dealing with how to deal with my emotions when it comes to certain matters. I'm a very emotional person, alot of people haven't seen this side but I'm overly emotional at times(and I hate it). I'm either over the top, crying, screaming...or to myself, quiet & withdrawn. So I'm working on trying to find a balance with my emotions. I'm also having trust issues. I find it so hard to put my trust in people, it seems that I get let down alot. I know that my expectations of others makes it that much harder for me to open up and relax, I'm working on this thing....I don't even trust myself sometimes(geeze).

I'm just heavy...there's so much going on that I need to address & handle...I've been so busy putting things aside until I found time to deal...I guess this is God's way of bringing things to light....I need to get ready to address & deal with these matters right now...but I don't feel like it but, I know I can't let them weigh me down any longer.

So Much to Be Thankful For....

Last week was Thanksgiving...and of course I was too busy to write what I was thankful for..but its never too late...I'm so thankful for so many things.
I'm thankful for life...for God granting me the opportunity to make it through this crazy world without cracking up. With all the horrible things going on in the world, I'm still so grateful for being in the land of the living.

I'm thankful for family...because without them I would be nothing. Family can be your best friends or your worst enemies but everyone who I consider family knows that they're everything to me and because of them...I am who I am.

I'm thankful for my friends, they know who they are. I love u guys...u r my extended family that I can truly say that you all compliment my life...you're always there for me for the good, bad, sad & chaotic times in my life. I don't know what life would be without u ladies...if I haven't ever said it before...I luv all of u guys...you're the best!!!

I'm thankful for Main Man...he has made such a difference in my life...I understand that 4-letter word foreal(lol). I'm thankful for his patience, criticism, companionship & most of all, his love for me. He's the best!!!

I'm thankful for having the activity of all my limbs, being healthy, all of my senses, common sense, high self-esteem, compassion, guts(u know people try to get over if they can), creativity(I'm always up to something)...I have so much to be thankful for...and even when things don't look positive, I'm still thankful.

My Wonderful Vacation-The ATLANTIS

I finally went on my vacation that I've been anxiously waiting to take..to The Atlantis(The Cove) in Paradise Island in Nassau, Bahamas. I had so much fun...it was wonderful. I flew First Class for the first time and I must say I'm totally hooked. Although its expensive, I think that it will be the only way I'll fly if I'm going out of the country. The weather was absolutely beautiful It wasn't real hot but it wasn't cold either(somewhere in the 80's). It was refreshing to get a chance to wear flip-flops & sundresses one more time. The hotel (The Cove) was picture perfect. The pictures/Internet didn't do the hotel any justice, it was simply beautiful. Our suite had a beautiful view of the island...we could see the pools, the other hotels, bridges, etc...breathtaking. Main man and I had the best time...shopping, swimming, drinking, gambling(yes, I won too) and eating(the food was incredible). We went into the city and shopped(the prices at Gucci, Fendi, Cartier etc were the best), we went to the Straw Market (the prices for souvenirs on the resort were too expensive). We did so much in those 4 days...it was a vacation that I will never forget.

The funniest part of the vacation is that everyone thought I was Bahamian. I was asked all day where I was from because I was told that I looked like I was from the islands(lol). What was ironic was that I found out that Davis is a Bahamian name. I was told that the Davis's have alot of land in the Bahamas so I think I need to trace my family background so I can see if I have some cousins that I can link up with(lol). The people were so friendly and I learned that that's just Bahamian culture(we need to adopt that culture here in the US).

The food...I've never ate that well ever...Main man and I dined in the finest restaurant every night...I'm talking gourmet, fine cuisine...we were doing it. The food was so fresh and so-ooo good.

We did so much in the time that we were there, and just spending time with one another was good. The both of us lead very busy lifestyles so this vacation was right on time.

to be continued........(with pictures)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!

Yesterday was my birthday...I still can't believe that I'm 36 years old...but I don't look a day over 26(lol). But yesterday was a great day. It started with me receiving all kinds of messages, emails, cards, etc...from friends & family(even people I haven't heard from in years). Its always nice to know that people care about me and that they remember my birthday. My sister & mom took me out last for dinner and that was really good...we hardly ever get a chance to spend time together(just the 3 of us) with all of us being so busy with work, school & our personal lives...so that was a highlight of my birthday. Main man came through with my favorite flowers(calla lilies) and some really nice birthday cards...it was just a nice, chill day. I had a few lunch invites but I decided to walk to the bookstore to pick up a few books and I just grabbed something to eat....for some reason I wanted to spend time with myself...and that's always good.

The older I get, I find more inner piece...its something I can't explain. I love being in the company of family & friends but I find that I love spending time with myself...I love me(lol). I'm so blessed...I know it...I feel it...and I thank God for it. I'm at a point in my life where I can finally pat myself on the back...I've accomplished so much in these 36 years and there's still so much to do. Everyday I'm processing life...trying to find ways to keep smiling, to stay focused and to become a better person.

I'm so grateful that God has granted me another year...that means he has more work for me to do, more lives for me to impact, more time to self-improve, more trips to take, more laughs with the girls, more time with family & most of all, more time for ME!!!!

My birthday was wonderful...it was day to celebrate me and I did just that. This Sunday, I'll be off to the Bahamas for vacation...more celebrating. I'm looking forward to having fun but overall, I need some rest & relaxation. I've been rippin' & runnin' for a minute and I need to gather my thoughts and kick back. This trip is an additional birthday gift...and I can't wait.